“Feed your faith and your fear will starve to death.” – Matthew Kelly, Decision Point
My eyes flew open this morning and I was wide awake, my heart pounding. No bad dream, no sudden loud noises, and yet, the rush of adrenaline fueled by fear coursed through me.
How do I know it was fear? Because the rush of adrenaline was followed by a contracted feeling in my chest, by the tide of worrisome thoughts that raced through my mind, by the compulsion to get out of bed RIGHT NOW and start doing something, anything to get rid of the discomfort.
But rather than get up, I turned over to look at my phone, opened my email, and there was the quote, “Feed your faith and your fear will starve to death.” Then, I got out of bed.
Still fearful, still with heart pounding, but now with the intention to savor that quote, rather than start in on an ever-expanding To-Do list.
What is faith? “Faith is the realization of what is hoped for and the evidence of things not seen”- Hebrews 11:1
What does faith need to exist? Faith requires an intellectual assent (mind)– “the Other is there;” and trust (heart/soul)- “I have confidence in the Other;” and action (body) – “I agree to enter into relationship with the Other.”
What does faith’s vision lead toward? Hope.
“For I know the plan I have for you, declares the LORD, plans for welfare and not for evil, to give you a future and a hope.” – Jeremiah 29:11
What does this vision entail? Love.
“And now these three remain: faith, hope and love. But the greatest of these is love.”- 1 Corinthians 13:13
We sometimes look at our lives when we are despairing and ask, “Is this it?” We get stuck asking the question over and over again. We fear everything that was and then fear everything that might come. And that Fear makes us small.
But when we live in faith, we start off saying, “This is NOT it. There IS more.” When we feed our faith, we become curious. We wonder. We play. We create.
Faith points us to the hope that, in the end, all roads lead to Love.
Love with the big “L”, Perfect Love that has so much to offer that it gives without cost, without fear, without worry, without need to receive from an imperfect world because it has already been filled to overflowing.
Faith is not “settling for”, it is “living into the fullness of…” Love –creative, abundant, overflowing, and generous.
Love opens us, gives us the strength and courage to be vulnerable and heart-centered and relational, because it is in Love that we receive the fullness of Life.
Today is my anniversary of 8 years working with Carilion. Tomorrow is my last day with Carilion.
Next week starts a new chapter, as I continue to live into the fullness of … Being.
Not just a role – disciple, doctor, wife, mother, friend. Not just these roles with their tidy boxes and expectations.
Rather, I begin a journey with no particular end except to intentionally walk along the paths that lead to Love.
Is it scary, the uncertainty? Very much so.
But the adrenaline coursing through my body right now is gentle, expanding my chest, soothing my mind, and inviting me to sit with wonder.
Divine Love is there. I have confidence in that Love. I agree to enter into relationship with Love today.
And the goal now isn’t a checking off of the To-Do list.
Rather it’s the gentle, curious question: Which roads today will lead to Love?